Saturday 11/28/09

Celtic Cross - What should I focus my energy on for December?

- Seven of Pentacles
Cover - self in relationship to the present situation.

The seeds you have sown are bearing fruit. Evaluate the outcome.

I hope this means that all the work trying to get pregnant will pay off.

- The Hanging Man
Cross - positive forces or obstacles

Be true to yourself and make appropriate sacrifices.

I think my sacrifice may be the money for invitro ($25,000) to fulfill my need for motherhood.

- Eight of Swords
Beneath - message from "higher self"

You feel helpless and need the courage to see clearly.

I sure feel helpless about getting pregnant. Maybe I need the courage to accept that we need to do invitro.

- Nine of Wands - Reversed
Crown - past

Don't give up and despair. Take a break to heal.

Ok, this is definitely about trying to get pregnant. I finally hit despair in the past few months.

- The Sun - Reversed
Behind - subconscious

Enjoy your current happiness and don't analyze it.

I am pretty happy at the moment although I have my lows when I'm not pregnant each month.

- The World
Before - relationship with others

Sense of unity with the world, mastery over self, completion and accomplishment.

Well things with my husband are good, my parents are down visiting for a few months and I have some good friends now that we have lived here for 3 year.

- Eight of Wands
Self - my attitudes

Waiting for an outcome and it won't be long.

Thank God! It's been 3 years of waiting already.

- Five of Pentacles
House - environment

You need help, ask for it.

This may be my fertility doctor.

- The Moon - Reversed
Hopes - hope and fears

Don't get turned astray by not viewing the situation clearly.

I am trying to be realistic and plan for invitro in February and if I get pregnant before then it is fabulous but not expected.

- Four of Pentacles
Outcome

You are hoarding your resources and have lost sight of what they are for. You will face an unhappy future unless you learn to use your resources.

OK, I get it. Suck it up and pay the $25,000 so I can get pregnant already. I guess the focus for this month is to save up money for invitro in February. Hopefully my wait won't be long!